My best friend Lisa and I have known each other since kindergarten. We’ve been really close friends since then though nothing romantic or sexual ever happened. I had a crush on her for a while, but I never told her and she got a boyfriend when I developed that crush. Recently I had surgery(nothing major) and am still recovering from it. Her parents are going through a real rough patch and have been arguing all day and night long. She asked to stay over at my house and my parents more than fine with that.
During that time she’s been super supportive helping with almost everything in my recovery. When we sleep over, sometimes we sleep on the bed together, sometimes one of us sleeps on the floor and the other the bed. Because I’m still recovering she insisted that I take the bed. Now due to the surgery the doctor prescribed me tranquilizers to take before bed. These tranquilizers are very strong and they really put me to sleep.
A couple days ago I was about to go to bed, but I only had a half dose of the tranquilizers left. I wasn’t really in much pain or anything so I just took the half dose and went to bed. I don’t know how much time had passed, but when I woke up Lisa was on top of me and I was inside her. I was awake, but really weak and it took so much energy to talk. Eventually she noticed that I had woken up and she got off of me and ran out of my room and out of my house. She wouldn’t receive my text messages or calls though her parents tell me she’s at her house.
I have no idea what I should do. Over the last few months I’ve really developed strong feelings for her, to the point where I think I love her. Should I tell my parents? Should I tell her parents and her older sister? Should I tell Lisa about my feelings for her? What is the right way to feel right now? I’m just really confused. If she told me she wanted to have sex with me I would have instantly agreed to it. I also don’t know if that was the first time she did that or if it happened before.