You need to get help via therapy, I’ve been there. I honestly lost count of how many times i was almost killed and i should be dead. I have a child also and he is my world. Do what you have to do to get better for your son. You dont need to get threw to your mom tbh she’ll just see how you’re doing better. Overtime youll be able to create a bond with your son and get into your own place. Its what you need.
Ok listen… first, I give you big props for staying alive after such a horrible experience. Going into seclusion is not that unusual after such a horrible crime. And now you feel you want to rejoin the land of the living… well, good for you 🙂
Mother is not ever going to be a supportive person regarding this situation. She’s shown you this. So you need to find a good therapist who can help with your PTSD. I had bad PTSD from an abusive marriage and my therapist used EMDR techniques on me and it really helped. But it will take a while, be prepared. GOOGLE EMDR.
You have a lot of work to do. But you can have a new, better life with your son. Be patient with yourself, get the help you need, and stick with it. Good luck!
First off, sorry you’re going through all this. Holy shit that all is brutal.
As to your mom, it sounds like she can’t face how close she got to losing you and is deflecting as much as she can to avoid processing that pain. Combine with the stress of helping to take care of you and your son and a toxic cocktail starts to brew.
Not to say that gives her a pass. Her behavior is not good for your recovery by any stretch of the imagination. Therapy all around would be ideal but if that’s not an option than definitely just for you. You need (and deserve) real assistance and support.
I wish you the best and I hope things can be less bleak for you soon. ❤