My boyfriend and I have been together for 1+ years. A couple of days ago, he told me that he's been thinking about things for a while and doesn't see himself settling down ever (no marriage, no kids). He'd previously said he wanted to settle down late – maybe in his mid 30s – and I was agreeable with that because it didn't seem that big of a deal.
This, however… I don't think I could be with someone and never get married, ever. I've always wanted to start a family of my own, and I view marriage as the ultimate level of commitment to each other. So I'm struggling to grasp this concept that maybe marriage isn't necessary, and neither are children. I can understand to a certain extent, but I don't think I'll ever stop hoping to get married.
My boyfriend says he doesn't want to drag me through the mud. We've been apart for more than a month now because of mandatory orders from the government that disallow us from meeting people outside of the family (I live with my parents). It's //at least// another two weeks before I can see him again, and I don't think I'll change my mind during this period of time.
I've been crying a lot and trying to act like things are normal. I love my boyfriend, but this is a difference that is hard to overcome. I could try pretend marriage doesn't matter to me, but it does and I don't know if he'll change his mind if I stick around (he himself said he might never change his mind). I've tried to persuade him/see if we could compromise, but there doesn't seem to be a solution to this.
I'm almost certain I want to break up with him, but I want to do it face to face if possible. Should I wait it out?
Tl;dr: Boyfriend doesn't want to get married, I do. We are unable to meet each other for at least another 2 weeks. Should I wait it out to break up with him in person?
Edit: Thank you everyone for the comments – I've read almost all of them so far. I've decided to wait it out just a little more and think things through during this period of time. I know the situation isn't exactly the best right now, but since I've spent almost 2 years with him, I want to talk to him face to face and break up if need be.